(7 months time frame between pics)

“Reflecting on this weekend I am totally humbled and blessed by the outpouring of love and support I have received from so many of you.  The wonderful messages, calls, and texts have all touched me so much to the point that it became a bit overwhelming and difficult to process.  It might surprise some to know that I’m actually extremely shy, introvert, and sensitive despite what I might come across as from the outside looking in.  So to receive so many notes saying that my journey has been a source of inspiration has been pretty crazy for me to digest.  In all honesty, when I decided I was going to do this show I had absolutely no business setting that goal.  I was overweight, not training with any intensity, not portioning my food, and I was depressed.  But what I did know was that I was tired of feeling like crap, tired of being afraid of the scale, tired of being tired, and I had to accept that I was extremely body dysmorphic, food addicted, and in extreme denial.  How I looked on the outside was a direct reflection of how I felt on the inside … Not good.  Not healthy.  Owning where I was at and knowing where I wanted to be was really all I needed.  What can I say I’m a competitive person.  There was no looking back and there was no stopping me.  No “I’ll just cheat here” or “I can skip the gym there”.  I trained at horse shows, I packed my food scale, and I got it done every single day.  It’s about focus … And if you know me you know there’s no grey area.  I’m the happiest I’ve been since I lost my dad, I’m surrounding myself with healthy and positive personal relationships, and I feel like I’m alive again.  So thanks guys for loving me big or small … And I hope the inspiration continues! Next up: provincials! Lift heavy, eat mindfully, and love with intention and yes that includes loving YOURSELF!’ ???